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Friday, December 31, 2004

today is the last day of the year 2005,and it is also my last day working in nando's.i've only worked there for 4 days and i've made the decision to quit.i simply can't stand working there anymore.i cannot deny that the staff are all nice and friendly people,the work is not really tough and the salary is quite high.but i dislike one of the manager so much that if i work with her any longer i'm gonna burst!you know,that malay woman is just so persnickety and emotional,one minute she can be giving you the brightest smile ever and the next minute she'll be scolding people for no specific reason like some kinda mad people.i wonder if she's having PMS at that moment.she even made me wipe the glass wall 2 times in a day,and for your information there are 2 glass-made walls in nando's!working with her simply sucks!!even her own brother who's currently working in nando's too doesn't like her.see just how pathetic she is.i'm starting to pity her...
arghhh...forget about the bad memories.i'm gonna leave those things behind and begin my first day of year 2005 with a bright smile and hoping that everything will turn out much better for the following days.well,actually i've already started to feel good because at last,i've decided to leave.i've been thinking hard about whether to quit or not since the first day of work in nando's.but i thought doing so would make me a very irresponsible person and that thought was the reason why i was so indecisive.but after considering the consequences and asking for advise from friends and my parents,now i'm so glad that i'm finally free!
oh ya,there is another thing which make me totally happy,maybe even ecstatic.hehe..=)my parents bought me the adidas watch which i've always long for!love ya dad+mom!love n kisses n huggies for you!!hehe..
opps..time to ZZzzz..so ciao~

Elin~ @ 11:53 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

life is so precious.treasure it.
live life to the fullest while you can.

let's pray for the victims of the earthquake in indonesia and the tsunami in more than 10 countries.

Elin~ @ 12:40 AM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Saturday, December 25, 2004

I read ah ying's blog just now, I guess we're both suffering from the same kind of sickness. A sickness called 'kekosongan jiwa' @ loneliness. I don't know if this applies to everyone, but as I grow older and older, I feel more and more lonely. I'm lost. I don't know what I really want anymore. Like there's one big important part missing from my life and I can't find it anywhere because I've no idea what it is. I feel as if I don't have as many friends as I used to have. I feel as if there's nobody who cares anymore. I feel as if I have lesser friends to talk to and lesser shoulders to cry on. I feel that those who were once so important to me are no longer as significant. I feel that many of my once very close friends are walking away from my life, walking away from me, leaving me behind and didn't even bother looking back. It is times like Christmas that reminds me of the good old days, it is times like Christmas that makes the loneliness in me even more obvious. I might look cheerful all the time, but I do have times when I feel totally discouraged. And this is getting more and more frequent, maybe I have too much time to myself that my mind's starting to work on the bad side. Behind the veils, everything can be so different from the way I behave in front of people. But that doesn't make me a hypocrite. I don't just put up a smiling face for no reason. I'm truly happy when I'm surrounded by people but when I'm not, I just can't control my mind. Maybe I'm just not that kind of people who can survive living alone all by myself.
If you ask me what is my wish for this Christmas? Santa, I'll tell you to take my loneliness away. But I guess it's too late now. It's already past midnight.

Merry Christmas.

Elin~ @ 1:49 AM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Friday, December 24, 2004

It's christmas eve,and i'm so alone.

Elin~ @ 7:16 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

i simply cannot live on like this anymore.alright i know i've said that i wanna lepak+enjoy to the maximum before i get a job.but i'm no longer enjoying my holidays anymore.maybe the 'maximum' is already exceeded,or maybe it was because my life was so interesting during the school trip and now that everything's back to normal,i can finally feel the emptiness inside...i'm bored to death at home!i spend all of my precious time doing practically nothing,except sleeping,eating and watching tv,tv and more tv.it makes me feel like i'm such a complete lazy pig...!i've gotta get myself a job...or i need something really exciting to jazz up my life...now that i'm jobless,and i'm aimless and i feel sooo useless!
calling for all of you kind samaritans out there...job recommendations please??i'll sincerely thank you with all my heart,my mind and my soul...boredom's killing me..help~!!

P/S: call me please Nando's,hire me!!!

Elin~ @ 1:25 AM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

sometimes people can be sooooo unreasonable!
don't ask.i have nothing to tell you about that.

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Monday, December 20, 2004

taken at 'honey bee farm' in cameron highland...again,beautiful right?kakaka..i'm good in taking photographs!! ish..this is what we call 'syok sendiri' + thick skin..haha..=P

Elin~ @ 7:43 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

strawberries from cameron highland..does this photo give you a feeling of blissfulness?it does for me... (=

Elin~ @ 7:27 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

on our way to pulau dayang bunting...seeing is believing..Pulau Langkawi is beautiful..

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eagles soaring high...20-30 eagles soaring above our heads..the scene was simply breathtaking!magnificent..according to our tour guide there were supposed to be more eagles,maybe around 60-70 of them..but it seemed like we went at the wrong hour or something like that..

Elin~ @ 7:19 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

this photo was taken when we were half way up the mountain at Goh Thong Village on the first day of our trip...it's been a long long time since i last saw a rainbow..beautiful,isn't it?

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Sunday, December 19, 2004

i didn't expect the school trip which i went for would be so much fun.of course i thought that it was gonna be fun but it turned out to be better than i thought it was going to be!i have to say that it is undeniable that problems occured when friends stay together.but it didn't matter that much though 'coz we made effort to learn how to be more understanding and considerate.i dare to say that we're much closer to each other now than before we went for the trip and those sweet memories are the things i certainly will treasure all my life.now it suddenly dawn on me that it doesn't matter where you go,the thing which is more important is who you go there with... (=

i came back yesterday night and felt so happy to be home again but at the same time i suddenly realised that i was actually starting to miss the trip already...we got to know a gang of friends during the trip and got really close to each other,it is funny how we could be so close to each other like there's no gap between us at all but the truth is that they are 4 years younger than us!!those kiddos are really cute and friendly,but they look kinda mature that we thought they are about 17 which is 2 years older than their actual age.

i miss the time when we gathered in a room and talked for hours until late at night.i miss the time when we swim in the resort's swimming pool in langkawi.i miss the time when we laughed our heads off making stupid jokes.i miss the time when SY and i stayed up for the whole night and started to talk crap 'coz we were too tired.i miss everything about the trip!!well,almost everything except the fact that there was a group of "ah bengs" in our trip too...sigh...those ah bengs are only 14 but their morals are so corrupted that they smoke,drink,gamble and speak vulgar language!!can u imagine?they're only 14!!with cute and innocent-looking faces!!kids of today are our future and now i'm starting to wonder how our future will turn out to be.i truly hope and pray that one day they will realise their mistakes and go back to the right path...

Elin~ @ 5:54 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Friday, December 10, 2004

i just listened to ryan cabrera's "true" at www.ryancabrera.com
it's a love song but it's really really nice...
simply love it.. =)

by the way,'rock the world V' is coming...and the ticket is only RM20!! how i wish i can go but i have nobody to go there with and i guess it's a lil too dangerous for girls to go for these kinda gigs...sigh..never mind..i guess i'll just have to buy the cd/vcd later..*disappointed*

Elin~ @ 1:41 AM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Monday, December 06, 2004

i spent my whole afternoon cleaning up my bedroom today.i thought it was gonna be pretty easy as there's nothing much in my room except 2 beds,a book shelf,a shelf for all my soft toys and that's it.but once i've started cleaning,i almost fainted.this is no easy task!!
man..i was so preoccupied with stpm that i didn't even realise that the dust in my room was already a few centimetres thick,and i slept in a room like this??no wonder i feel sick all the time..hmm..now it makes sense...
my teddys,my winnie the poohs,my books are all dusty.some are even covered with spider webs.yes..spider webs!!now you know how scary it is huh?i seriously don't understand.my room was only left abandoned for about a month.so how could this ever happen?wait,i think it's not a month..maybe err..2 months?no..i think i didn't clean it for the last 3 months or so...
arrgghh...who cares?the important thing is that now it looks perfect clean!!

Elin~ @ 6:52 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Thursday, December 02, 2004

as the saying goes "if it doesn't kill you,it will only make you stronger", so i guess i'm very much stronger now.in fact all of us form sixers are way stronger than we were before.
why?'coz we survived!!after 31 days of pure suffering and sleepless night..we made it to today!!isn't that amazing?isn't that something that we should be so proud of?yes,i truly think that it is...
so let's celebrate,let's enjoy our newfound freedom,let's lepak to the maximum!!!haha.. (=
cheers.

Elin~ @ 11:47 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

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