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Saturday, October 30, 2004

hey my poor brain..has biology kill you yet?
yea...almost...*sob*
hey elin,2 more days to go and you're still coming online?
yea...i'm still coming online...
there are 3 chapters left for you to study you know?
yea...of coz i know...kakaka...
err..and you're still laughing??
yea...i'm still laughing...so?
what's wrong with you?
i'm pretty sure you know what's wrong with me...

so don't ask!!!

yes...i'm CRAZEE... (=
you have a problem with that?

Elin~ @ 10:39 AM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

WORRYnervous
Anxious scared
STRESSED

6 days to stpm! *sob*
i'm going crazy...

Elin~ @ 1:42 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Saturday, October 23, 2004

it's one of my good frens' birthday today(not gonna mention her name coz i dun think she's gonna like it if she sees her name here...=P) we went for satay celup *yummy* to celebrate her birthday and yes,we had a lot of fun hanging out together (= however we only spent bout 1 hour there and we went home straight after...sigh...wat to do?exam's only 10 days from now..gotta go home and study..~>_<~ seriously i still feel amazed til today coz i didn't know that we could get along so well since we're not really the same kind of people..but i'm glad now that we know each other better...i think we've been a really bad influence on her though..she's always a very studious and homely girl(and she still is) but it seems like she's starting to discover the ART of lepaking...muahahahaha....yay!!!nice...one more lepak kaki in the list! (=

Elin~ @ 6:42 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Thursday, October 21, 2004

nothing is certain in our lives.
uncertainty causes fear in each and everyone of us.fear of losing our possessions,fear of losing the ones that we love,fear of not being able to achieve anything during our time,fear of dying..but come and think of it,uncertainty also makes our lives seem more precious and it makes us realise that we should treasure and cherish every moment that we have now..but how many of us is aware of this and is able to stop the fear from haunting us and decide to live our lives to the fullest?how many of us can be really grateful of what we have now instead of mourning over the things that we can't have?how many of us concentrate in our future without looking back to our past?
i read this from somewhere but i can't remember where...
- live everyday like it's your last,'coz one day you're gonna be right!-
meaningful ain't it?think about it...

Elin~ @ 1:34 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

"BROKEN"
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You don't feel me here anymore

-Seether feat. Amy Lee-

i've no idea why but this song is stuck in my head ever since i woke up this morning..tried to get it out of my head by listening to some other songs,but when i switced on the radio...it's 'broken' again!!!man...what a coincidence...(-_-') okay okay i guess i'll just give in and let it be..i kinda like this song actually..hehe..*wink wink*

Elin~ @ 12:26 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

what's your main aim in life?dunno?
what course do u wanna take?dunno...
which university do u wanna enter?dunno........
what's ur ambition??i said i dunno!!
i feel really frustrated whenever i'm asked these kinda questions.not that i'm being impatient or anything.it's just that i'm feeling so depressed with myself coz i dunno which way should i go.i dont know what i want in life.like i've no dreams,no direction,no nothing..like i'm lost,like there are thousands of roads in front of me and i'm indecisive of which to take.
i've no idea since when i became like this...i'm so miserable right now...i used to have my own dreams,my plans,but as time passes by,my vision blurred.
i don't know?maybe people learn to be practical as they grow up.we just cannot do whatever that we like anymore.whatever things that we lay our hands onto,we've got to think about the consequences,the possible outcome.we cannot do it just becoz we like it anymore...it's the same with choosing courses.do u go for the course which you're interested in?or the one which guarantees you a bright future?
sometimes i wonder,do i really wanna be a successful career woman in the future?a part of my heart say yes,the other part,NO...but a very big part of my heart tells me that i yearn for a peaceful life in which i've no worries at all..i dun wanna be a very successful person,i just wanna lead my life the way i wanted it to be...but thinking this way makes me feel useless...coz i shouldn't be thinking like this,i should work really hard and figure out a way to have great achievements in the near future so that i can repay my parents..yea i know i should,but i don't feel like doing it...it's pure suffering...~>_<~
my thoughts are in such a mess now.i can't think straight.i can't see clearly,i don't know what's ahead of me.i don't know what i want anymore...do you?

Elin~ @ 4:42 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Monday, October 18, 2004

Mr. Alex didn't come into our class today and that was why we had 2 relief periods...everybody seemed to be really busy studying or doing exercises,but there were a few exceptional cases though..=) as usual, the guys at the back of the class were making a lot of noise,they were posing and taking funny photos again if i'm not mistaken..(can't wait to see the results,i bet i'll laugh my lungs out again..kaka..)
as for me, i had a really nice chat with a few classmates..we were talking about working after stpm.thought of finding some meaningful jobs instead of those nothing-much-u-can-learn-from-it job,ie promoter or waitress.well,i cannot deny that i had a lot of fun working in secret recipe last year and i'd met a group of nice and friendly people there,but it's undeniable too that i didn't really learn much from it..thought of getting some real working experience this time..but of course the salary cannot be too low coz i really need those money...i'm planning to buy a mp3 player,a digital camera and a note book next year before i go to university...so now u see why i keep talking bout money right?keke...=P
i have a friend who's currently working part-time in a law firm and i think that's pretty cool...guess not everybody is that fortunate to be offered such a good opportunity...
hey...wait a minute,stpm's not even over yet and i'm talking bout working?okay okay i better get back to my bio notes now...specialised cells in plants..sigh...this is boring...*sob sob*

Elin~ @ 12:13 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Celebration for our beloved biology teacher,Pn. Chan's early retirement...she's moving to KL soon...gonna miss her so much!!she's the best bio teacher ever~!muackss...=)

Elin~ @ 11:46 AM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

Sunday, October 17, 2004

i'll never try to make you comprehend,
for i know you'll never understand,
at the edge of two different world we stand,
things will never be the same again.

it is time for us to go our seperate ways,
years from now i wonder if you'll still remember my face,
i thought everything is erased,gone without a trace,
but it suddenly dawn on me,the pain remains.

will i be able to find bliss again?

P/S:i know this came out really bad...but hey,it's my first time ok?i decided to post it anyway...by the way what's the correct format for poems?can this be called a poem?no i guess...sorry i didnt pay much attention during literature lesson..keke..=P

Elin~ @ 3:54 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

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